Waiting is worth it
Especially when you find the one worth waiting for
I used to look for Prince Charming when I didn’t understand that real relationships take real work. I had some obnoxious list of wants. Rooted in vanity. This height, he needs to make this salary…pure foolishness. Now that I’m older, my priorities have definitely changed.
I’ve learned that I need a partner, my ace. Someone who enjoys the things I enjoy: traveling, reading, volunteering, random 3am trips to 7-eleven for slurpees. I need someone who understands that life is too short to waste by not fulfilling their God given purpose. I need a best friend who is willing to lay down in the trenches when times get rough. I need a love that sees that I’m not perfect and is okay with that.
And while I say that I need all these things, I must be willing to be all these things for my partner. If two people give their all to ensure that their partner is happy, both people win in the relationship. There is no room for lack.
Waiting is rough…
There are times when I want to throw in the towel. Times when my standards are tested and I have to make the decision to stand firm or lower them. There are times when I wished relationships would’ve worked out. One thing I can be sure of is that I never want to regret not waiting and settling for someone who can’t reciprocate the love I give.
So I purposefully decided to wait on these things. It’s a reason for it all and I’ll continue to wait. It’s worth it.
Seasons of growth require us to be uncomfortable with our current state. God has a funny way of shaking things up to get you in His will. I’m learning to trust the process no matter how unsure it may feel at times.
One of my favorite spoken word artist stated,
Just like the moon, we all go through phases…life is a maze but life is amazing
Life is just that. Amazing!
Through the ups and downs, peaceful and turbulent seasons of our lives, this journey of becoming is wonderful. Circumstances don’t dictate our happiness. People don’t dictate our happiness. Let go of the past and allow change to take place in your heart. Embrace life and allow yourself to be amazed.
I wanted more than you were willing to offer
You’ve proven my fears to be correct
I can only thank you for your honesty even though my pride was the payment
I shed tears that night…our last call
I was angry for allowing myself to be vulnerable again- open to someone who had no intentions of loving me
One day I won’t be a thought. The moments we shared will disappear from your memory with time and separation.
Finalizing the end of it all
I just want to be adored. It seems my whole life I’ve been trying to find that missing piece saying the statement over and over again.
I just want to be adored
Though violent words were thrown at me like punches, heartbreaks to heartaches,
the fact remains- I just want to be adored
You are the epitome of beauty
Your eyes, your smile…
I’m in awe of you. Heaven is your name.
I’ve never chose myself. I didn’t think I was worth choosing. Now I know better and I’ve never felt joy like this.
I wanted so badly to heal you of your brokenness that I was willing to tear my heart in pieces to make yours complete
I accepted less than my worth to build your confidence
I hid my face from the sunlight so that you would feel all its warmth and beauty
I’ve learned that true love will never require you to destroy yourself